During a particularly dark season in my life, I was driving with my kids in the car when the song “Even If” by Mercy Me was played on the radio. When the unmistakable voice of Bart Millard sang, “But God when you choose to leave mountains unmovable, Oh, give me the strength to be able to sing, ‘It is well with my soul’ “, I started sobbing.
God had chosen to leave some mountains in my life unmovable and my heart was breaking. I had faith that he could change the situations. I prayed that he would change me where I needed to be changed. I prayed desperately for healing. But the mountains remained.
What I have noticed in my life is that there is a shift that takes place in my prayers as a result of moments like this. I shift from praying for the mountains to be moved to praying that I would remain unmovable in my trust in the Lord. Sometimes the heartache in our lives doesn’t change. Sometimes it just gets worse. We pray that our loved one would be restored to health and instead they pass away. We pray that we would extend grace and love to others and instead we respond unkindly yet again. We pray for reconciliation and instead we lose relationships.
How can we sing, “It is well with my soul” when our world is falling apart?
Our ability to truly believe that “it is well” rests in where we choose to focus our eyes. When we are focused on expecting certain outcomes or results to our prayers, we will be disappointed (and even devastated at times). But trusting in God’s perfect plan for our lives, believing that he is lovingly writing our stories even when we would not choose this particular adventure, allows us to find peace that passes understanding.
When the mountains don’t move, we can remain unmovable, trusting our completely trustworthy God.
And then we will have the strength to sing, “it is well with my soul”!