But those who HOPE…

I miss him.

There is a part of me that is always missing him; a part that is saddened by the steady losing of my Daddy, but I was reminded of it even more this past week.

My Mama (or Grandma as she is most often referred to around these parts!) came to visit us. It was the first time in 6 years that she has been able to do this but it was the first time without Grandfather.

I felt his absence keenly.

I was my Daddy’s girl. His little tomboy. I grew up wanting to be by his side, whether it was going to football games, taking out the trash or competing to see who knew the most Bible verses (he always won!).

He was my confidante and in many ways my anchor. He would consistently point me to the truth in scripture and lovingly challenge me when I would go off course. He wrote the best letters!

All of these things are gone now.

And my heart aches with the loss.

I am saddened by the reality that my little Ainsley baby will never know her Grandfather. I am praying that she will meet him, but she won’t know him.

Not like Lindsay has…

…and not like Ethan remembers his Grandfather.

Even Gibson has memories of Grandfather…

…but will Ainsley?

The truth is that I could dwell here. I could live in the sadness and regret over this slow losing.

But instead, I choose to live in the blessings. My kids had a wonderful time with their Grandma. They have made memories that will last a lifetime. Their favorite was playing Uno Roboto with her (ironically, playing Uno with my Grandma is one of MY favorite memories!).

And Grandma snuggled Ainsley close many times!

In these things, I can rejoice.

We talked about favorite verses as we sat around the dinner table last night. My mom shared Isaiah 40:31- “But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

What a sweet reminder for how I want to live my life! I want to live in HOPE- not dwelling on the I wishes or the if onlys.

Life is full of disappointment, but it is also full of hope if we are willing to search for it. Hope- because this life is not all that there is. Hope- because the difficulties remind us that we need Jesus. Hope- because God has a plan for our lives. Hope- because even though my kids will not know their Grandfather in the way that I might want them to, they have been blessed with many people who love them like crazy.

One of my favorite verses is the same theme- “Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have HOPE. Because of the Lord’s great love, we are not consumed. His compassions never fail, they are new every morning. Great is your faithfulness” (Lamentation 3:21-23).

Are you in need of hope today? Start by dwelling on the truth of scripture. Focus on what you have been blessed with- the things in which you have cause to rejoice.

And may you soar on wings like eagles!